Mar

9

Not so happy!

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I’ve been having fun, yes… but my life can never be just GOOD without any ugly consequence you know? Right now I’m going through some down moments, still going out but now just to distract myself, I have too many things in my head. When I’m home, I don’t feel like updating my sites and that sucks. CHESTER-LAND.NET is going to suck if I keep feeling this way. Plus, I still can’t find my photoshop so I can’t change the layout, then my screen captures program stopped working and I can’t make screen captures of some awesome videos I’ve seen and our gallery is down again. FUCK!. Next time we get it online, I promise I’ll save everything back on my computer and make a new gallery somewhere else!.

Also… I haven’t watched many movies, in February I only watched THREE MOVIES can you believe that? I don’t… three movies in a month when I used to watch like at least 25 movies in a month. I haven’t read a single book this year, what the heck is happening to me? seriously? Three months and no books yet? That’s not normal. My brother gave me The Lord of the Rings books, also, The Count of Monte Cristo, A Tale Of Two Cities, Red Dragon and The Godfather to read… haven’t started any. I’m such a big fat BLAH lately. I don’t feel like doing anything productive, just wasting my time having fun, that’s SO not good ¬¬

Plus, I couldn’t get a video done for Linkin Park.com’s contest “LP Part of my Life” ’cause I also couldn’t find the installer for my video editing program that I always use. It sucks ’cause I had a grrrreat idea for a video. I just hope I can get something done for Chester’s birthday or otherwise I’m so going to hate myself… I want to make something special this year.

Blaaaaaaaaah now I’m off bye!

Comments

5 Responses to “Not so happy!”

  1. shan1105 on March 9th, 2010 4:42 pm

    Oh honey, things will get better. you need to focus on the positive. Maybe the blah feeling is a iron deficiency. that will make you tired. Sorry that’s the nurse in me. Everything happens for a reason and life always turns around. Think of what you have to be grateful for. Sometimes you must face the clouds to find you silver lining. :)

  2. Tensh_iie on March 10th, 2010 1:03 am

    Hey girl,
    just saw your post and wanted to stop by and give you a hug. Everything will get better with time and it’s normal to feel like you do! Just kee going, fight and don’t give up and you’ll realize you’re exactly where you belong to!

    And for CL if you need any help as in updating, the gallery or the layout just let me know. You know I will always support you and Chesterland and if you need I’ll be there!!!!!!! Promise!
    Love you and you’re awesome!
    *hugs*

  3. JoeyDC on March 16th, 2010 4:25 pm

    I guess we all go through such a phase like this. I also hate days where I don’t feel like doing anything, but wasting my time with unnecessary things. Don’t be so hard on yourself. It will pass, and you’ll smile again. Right now, I’m so tired of LP myself so I really don’t feel like doing anything that’s related to them. Just be patient, and you’ll find your happiness again.

    By the way, you look so very pretty on the photo :) .

  4. Illara on March 21st, 2010 6:44 am

    you looked stunning, cDEAN! :)

    its okay, hun. everything’s gonna be okay. :) we’re here for you, hunneh.

    xoxo
    Greetings from Singapore

  5. Mckenzie on June 15th, 2010 1:43 pm

    you looked stunning, cDEAN! :)

    its okay, hun. everything’s gonna be okay. :) we’re here for you, hunneh.

    xoxo
    Greetings from Singapore

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