MRS. DEAN

Like I said on my last post, I finally have a car… well, I’m a free woman now. It’s so awesome to be able to say “I feel like going out” call a friend, take your keys and just go out. A day like today three months ago, I’d be bored and with no chances of going out, right now I just called my friend Nayeli and I’m picking her up in an hour and we’re going to the movies to watch New York, I love you. It’s so awesome to be free of doing whatever you feel like doing.

Before I had this car, I was scared of driving and crashing the car, I was nervous every time I was behind a wheel and couldn’t drive on busy streets. Now it’s a completely different story, I go everywhere without fear… it’s awesome! I’m so freaking happy!

Mar

9

Not so happy!

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I’ve been having fun, yes… but my life can never be just GOOD without any ugly consequence you know? Right now I’m going through some down moments, still going out but now just to distract myself, I have too many things in my head. When I’m home, I don’t feel like updating my sites and that sucks. CHESTER-LAND.NET is going to suck if I keep feeling this way. Plus, I still can’t find my photoshop so I can’t change the layout, then my screen captures program stopped working and I can’t make screen captures of some awesome videos I’ve seen and our gallery is down again. FUCK!. Next time we get it online, I promise I’ll save everything back on my computer and make a new gallery somewhere else!.

Also… I haven’t watched many movies, in February I only watched THREE MOVIES can you believe that? I don’t… three movies in a month when I used to watch like at least 25 movies in a month. I haven’t read a single book this year, what the heck is happening to me? seriously? Three months and no books yet? That’s not normal. My brother gave me The Lord of the Rings books, also, The Count of Monte Cristo, A Tale Of Two Cities, Red Dragon and The Godfather to read… haven’t started any. I’m such a big fat BLAH lately. I don’t feel like doing anything productive, just wasting my time having fun, that’s SO not good ¬¬

Plus, I couldn’t get a video done for Linkin Park.com’s contest “LP Part of my Life” ’cause I also couldn’t find the installer for my video editing program that I always use. It sucks ’cause I had a grrrreat idea for a video. I just hope I can get something done for Chester’s birthday or otherwise I’m so going to hate myself… I want to make something special this year.

Blaaaaaaaaah now I’m off bye!

Mar

1

Get this party started!!!

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I don’t know what’s into me but I’ve been partying every weekend and been going out every day with my friends. I’m starting to believe, I’m just trying to distract myself from those thoughts that bring me down haha. Lately, lots of things have been going on in my life and changes just don’t seem to cease, they just keep coming. My home life is hard to deal with, so I try to stay out of it as long as possible, that’s why I haven’t been around so often… but it’s good, ’cause I’ve been having so much fun. I remember not long ago, that I could spend a whole day in my house doing nothing fun, just chillin, watching TV, reading a book. Now, as soon as I get out of that lazy feeling after lunch, I start calling my friends to see what we’re going to do in the night/afternoon haha I can’t stop myself now haha. Tonight I went to a Casino and then for dinner with my friend, last night I went to a concert (of a Philharmonic orchestra) the night before I went to a bar, and so on… not a single boring day… I think I just stayed home ONE night the entire week and because I was too tired to go out.

I’m indeed enjoying this phase…

Feb

10

Proud owner of a BlackBerry!

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The biggest news in my daily life lately, would be that I finally got a BlackBerry, I’ve wanted one for years but never thought I’d be able to get one. My friend @Blue0Phoenix even made a joke saying “Hi, I’m @TheChesterDean and I’m in love with my BlackBerry” and that was SO TRUE! haha. I can’t help it, I can go on and on about how amazing a BlackBerry is. I’m online 24/7 and it’s well known what a huge internet addict I am, so now, I can go out and keep in touch on my cellphone. The only downside of it all, it’s that my BlackBerry doesn’t have enough space for me to put music on it, but I bought a new memory card and should get it soon, so I will also record videos like crazy. It’s so awesome to be able to tweet, send pictures, check my email, etc, wherever I am. The other day, I was bored out of my mind on a bus drive so I spent it chatting hahaha BlackBerry just saved my life from boring bus drives, long trips, and lazy afternoons… THANK YOU BLACKBERRY! LOL

On the other hand, I’m still pretty busy with my social life. Been partying every weekend (we don’t want to loose our ‘party-every-weekend-phase’ so we’ve been partying every weekend of the new year LOL). And even though most of my friends are like ten years older than me (or more) they’re so freaking fun to be with, I love hanging out with them, they’re the best!.

I’ve also been taking Salsa lessons, even though I KNOW how to dance (and do it quite well) I needed a new “hobby” to pass the time and exercise. They’re amazing, my teacher is TEH BEST, he’s not only gorgeous LOL but he’s also an incredible dancer and an amazing person, he’s always making us laugh and feel like we’re the best dancers in the world LOL, he’s so fun and such a nice person, I think I love him LOL.

I’m having lots of fun. But I’ve also been working really hard on school, working on my thesis and teaching teenagers in the morning. Life’s balanced, and I can deal with everything and I’m loving it. Not a lot of stress, and my Salsa lessons are really helpful. I feel good!!!.

Jan

14

Before Sunrise

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I’m the kind of idiot that watches the sequel of a movie first by accident and then watches the first one to understand it better. And now that I did, I loved both… Before Sunrise and Before Sunset. The first one is so cute, it reminded me of that one Summer I met a boy and only spent a week with him, and when we said goodbye our feelings were already too strong like if we had met before. I’ve never seen him again, but he’s still part of my favorite memories from the past.

Plus, I love the conversations they have through the movies, there’s nothing better than spending a lot of time with someone and getting to know them. I love those talks between people that just met, sometimes they’re even more profound than the usual talks you have with your best friends. I simply loved it. Now I own both movies, so I’ll be watching Before Sunset tonight hehe!.

Plus, Ethan Hawke is HOT in the first one hehe!.

Jan

11

So Lost

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I’ve been so lost lately, I really miss posting here and reading your blogs, or tweeting, and working on my sites. But life’s been crazy, but cool. I’ve been going through several changes

Like you can see on the picture, my hair is now straight I’ll be having it like this for a couple of months, depends on how fast it grows and how well I take care of it. I’m in love with my hair now, I mean… I love my curls, but they’re impossible to comb, nor I can’t do anything with it, with straight hair I can try new things and it’s a big change since I’ve had curls almost all of my life hehe.

I’ve had really good comments about it, so I’m happy with the results. I’m going through a phase in my life that I want to change all the bad things in me, and I’m doing incredibly well since then, trying out some positive thinking and taking care of myself for a change. I feel so good lately, I want to feel like this forever.

Now I’m going to read your blogs!.

Dec

29

Spoiling myself

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When I was younger, I didn’t like at all going shopping and trying clothes, I think I actually hated it, I didn’t care about fashion nor anything really girly… but things have changed lately and I’ve been spoiling myself. Today I went shopping with my mom and I got a blouse, a sweater, a skirt and a pair of black boots. I fell in love with the yellow sweater, it’s beautiful even though it doesn’t look that pretty on pictures hehe. And yesterday, my cousin decorated my nails… I’ve never liked fake nails, they annoyed me like hell but right now I’m loving them, this was actually the first time that I was willing to get them and asked for them hahaha. I like my new me.

This is the sweater, it looks better when it’s on me so I’ll take a picture of me wearing it soon haha.

I just fell in love with this blouse hehe.

I’m addicted to mini-skirts, I’ve been wearing them since I was old enough to choose my own clothes.

Look at the boots, I’m in love hehe. I’ll pretend is the female version of the Beatles’ boots LOL

And lastely, my nails. My cousin is really talented with these, she was always telling me to get them and now that I did I’m happy with the results

Dec

27

Noooooooo, my camera :(

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For some odd reason, my camera started taking pictures with horrible lines all across the picture, today… it got worse, now, the pictures keep having those lines but now the picture is also a big big blur. WHYYY???

I try to figure out how could I have possibly break it, but I’ve never dropped it, and I always handle it with care because I know I have no money to buy another one. I take good care of my things. So I’m totally deppressed for losing my camera. For you to get an idea, I can live without my cellphones, I don’t mind having one, but my camera? she goes wherever I go, I’m obsessed of taking pictures of every party I go. Now, I won’t have pictures of the biggest party of the year (New year’s eve) because my stupid camera decided to be a bitch

I’m only hopeful, ’cause my Dad is doing some businnes and he’ll get some money (hopefully… so, get your fingers crossed for us, please) actually, it would be a lot of money, and he’d give me money to get me a car (FINALLY) and money to buy me stuff. So, if he gets it, I’ll be getting new clothes, a car and a new camera. We’ve been waiting for this to happen for so long and now it’s so close, I don’t want to get my hopes high, but I really hope he gets the money, nor only my family needs it, but it would also mean a huge change in my life since I’ve never had a car of my own, it only means… FREEDOM! and I need a little bit of that haha.

Dec

22

I’m so thankful

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This year started like any other, but as it went by lots of bad things happened to me. Firstly, I got my heart broken like I promised I wouldn’t allow anyone to break it, and it was broken by my best friend which it hurt the most. And all the family problems that went on this year was bringing me down like you have no idea, I was desperate for this year to end and try to make next year a little better for me and my family.

But things started to brighten up slowly. I adore my job (teacher) and my kids makes my day happier, they’re incredibly adorable. I lost a friend for a stupid reason but gained other friends that has been supportive and nice to me and that now I love dearly.

My self-confidence is back, I’m loosing weight (FINALLY) and I’m feeling GRREAT, I’m meeting lots of new people that are making my life happier. I’ve also been partying and having fun like I hadn’t in a long time because I was worrying myself with stupid things.

And there’s also these people that I don’t personally know but are part of my life thanks to the internet, and they are AMAZING and I feel like I have true friends that support me no matter what I do. You guys totally ROCK.

My dreams are also coming true slowly, I got to see one of my favorite artists live when it seemed like something impossible for me to do. Twitter got me in contact with incredible people like Talinda and Chester Bennington, who are amazing and kind, and I’m really thankful that I had a chance to know them a little bit more.

I’m so happy for all these people that are now part of my life and are making me happy. You guys have no idea what you mean to me. I’m really lucky for having a chance to meet each and everyone of you. You rock!.

Thanks 2009 for all these amazing experiences I could only dream of.

Dec

20

Loved in 2009

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I saw this at my friend Illara’s journal and thought I should do something similar since I tend to love a lot of things in one single year, so here’s a list of things that won my heart on 2009. I shall warn you it’s going to be a LONG list hehe!.

1.- DEAD BY SUNRISE
Obviously, the best about 2009 was Chester’s band Dead By Sunrise. Like I’ve said before, whatever Chester Bennington is in, I’m going to support it and I simply fell for this new band, the music is AMAZING. And I was extremely happy that I finally heard something totally CHESTER. His lyrics, his music, his voice, this was a true work of Chester Bennington, so it’s very special for me!.

2.- RYAN SHUCK
I was never really into Orgy and I never paid that much attention to Julien-K and at first, I thought I wouldn’t like Dead By Sunrise’s other members, ’cause I only cared about Chester, I seriously thought it would be hard for me to like other guys that weren’t Linkin Park. BUT it only took me one interview to love Ryan, he’s so funny and I simply liked him. Plus, I love the interaction in interviews with him and Chester, you can easily see they’re true friends just having fun and that’s amazing.

3.- MIKE SHINODA’S PICTURE
What can I say? I’m loving his style and this picture is simply PERFECT and I fell for it, I can spend minutes staring at it.

4.- TALINDA BENNINGTON
I know she’s not a real celeb. And I don’t normally follow Chester Bennington’s personal life, ’cause after all it should be PERSONAL. But I got a chance to know this lady a little bit more than only from pictures and she’s amazing. I never thought she’d be as nice as she actually is, and I really really liked her.

5.- HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU (Alex & Gigi)
This movie rocks, I loved it. I totally fell for Alex and Gigi’s relationship since the beginning. How Alex was always true to her even though he seemed to be cruel. I watched it again last night, and I could watch it over and over again. Simply PERFECT!. And it was always good to learn that when a guy wants to see a girl, he’ll make it possible.

6.- TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON
I never thought I would like this movie as much as I did. There was one time in my life that I had a love triangle that I usually compare with these three fictional characters. My personal brand of heroin that I could never resist, and the guy that offered me everything a girl would want and was healthier for me but I always rejected. And this movie reminded me of that time. Specially the line that goes something like “Don’t make me choose, it’s always been him” or something like that.

7.- TAYLOR LAUTNER
If you wonder why I put Taylor and not my RPattz on the list, it’s because I fell for Robert in 2005, not in 2009 heh!. Anyway, I never liked Taylor, never ever… until I saw New Moon. Then I read he was 17 and now I feel like a sinner for lusting after a CHILD haha. I’m still Team Edward though hehe.

8.- ENRIQUE BUNBURY’S CONCERT
It was AMAZING the best concert I’ve ever been in. Even though I had a heartbreaking moment when it was canceled in my city, I got to travel and still see him live and it was totally worth it. He’s an amazing performer and I got to sing my favorite songs along with the man itself. An experience I’ll NEVER forget.

9.- ENRIQUE BUNBURY’S AUTOGRAPH
I’ve never had an autograph in my entire life that I trully treasured. The only three pretty cool autographs I got are Alex Lora’s (from a band called El Tri), Ty Dennis’ (from Riders on The Storm formely The Doors) and this one, but this is the coolest one ’cause I adore Enrique Bunbury and is one of my top favorite artists from all time.

10.- AMERICA VS. ATLANTE MATCH
My favorite soccer team has been America since I was a little kid. I had never seen a match live, I did for the first time this year and it was AMAZING being there in the crowd, shouting things to my team. Specially ’cause I have a crush on one of their players called Memo Ochoa haha!.

11.- CHESTER’S TWEET
Even though he got my twitter name wrong, I really appreciated that he thanked me. It was trully, one of the best days of my life haha I was so incredibly happy I couldn’t believe he knew a ChesterDEAN existed somewhere and it was really really sweet. He made me smile like prolly no one has ever done it.

12.- CHESTERDEAN.NET
Even though the site isn’t that great and sometimes it lacks of interesting content, making it was GREAT and I’ve got to know amazing people and it’s always nice to have a place to go and rant about my favorite things and read about the things my friends likes. So, making this site is part of the things I loved this year.

13.- BIGGER
I don’t have the actual album yet (This is Us) of the Backstreet Boys but I have it on my computer. And I’m simple addicted to the song Bigger. The lyrics reminds me how I could have loved a jekr and still stood by his side because I was in love… like he could dedicate this song to me and fit our relationship haha. Plus, Brian looks freaking adorable in the video and AJ is wearing a Jim Morrison tee. Even though I’d have loved if the video had something to do with the lyrics, that’d had been awesome.

14.- CHESTER’S PLAID SHIRTS
I’m loving that Chester’s wearing plaid shirts again. It brings back the nostalgia when plaid shirts were his favorites around 2001 and I was a brand new fan. It reminds me of the good old times when I was young and found the band that I’d love forever.

15.- FIRE
And finally… the song Fire by Dead By Sunrise. I’ve already made a post about this song and how special it is to me. Back in 2005-ish that I was going through the worst time of my life, Chester Bennington gave me “Let Down” and now, that time changed me, he now gave me “Fire”. And it kind of expresses a lot of things I feel and think. So this year, THIS is MY song and I’m gonna always be grateful with Chester Bennington for always making a special song that would help me cope with my personal demons.